What's that "one thing" that will help me find permanent motivation?

One of my New Years Resolution was to write stories (again), but I’m still the same lazy person I was last year. The only thing I write are my low self-esteem questions on YA. My motivation is weak & ALWAYS sapped by Internet distractions. I’m addicted to the web. Then I feel I need people to motivate me, but I don’t know (nor trust) anyone who shares my dreams. I have God, who’s all I need, but how will I know he’s motivating me when I can’t hear him?